I am constantly bombarded by people "reading into" what I do and say and assuming my motives. I talk a lot of shit and rant about crap. I don't always filter what goes on in my head and I say things without purpose, just 'cause that's the thought that is going through my head. It's not always right, it's not always something I truly believe, it's just some random crap that I spat out because the alternative is that I sit there silently. I'll say this in caps so maybe their power will get my point across: YOU CAN'T READ ME, DON'T TRY, IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I THINK, FUCKING ASK ME. Stop assuming that I have some master plan that I'm trying to accomplish by the things I do and say, I'm just trying to survive at this point. I find it offensive that dishonesty is assumed of me.